Thursday, May 7, 2009

Things I Wish For

*for some reason the paragraph spacing isnt working very well of late...which is why my paragraphs have no spaces between them...sorry for the way the post just runs on in one long patch. Anyone know how I can fix that?

Ive noticed on other blogs people often make lists of various things. A lot of them make wish lists....things they want obviously but for whatever reason cant seem to get. I figured thats as good a post as any other I was thinking of doing just heres my wish list...well thought out but by no means complete.
1. I wish I could magically wake up tomorrow and be 50 pounds lighter....OK I lie...I wish I could magically find the desire to go exercise so that some day I could wake up and be 50 pounds lighter.
2. I wish I could afford to go to college...or at least take some courses on computers and journalism.
3. I wish I could find a job that would allow me to afford to take those courses.
4. I wish I could guarantee my children will not follow my footsteps into abusive marriages...and if they do happen to find themselves in abusive marriages...I hope they have the strength and courage to get themselves out of it. And I hope they reach out to me for help and not keep their pain hidden.
5. I wish I could pay off my little red Daihatsu jeep so I could send it to my daughter in Texas...she loves it and I would be over the moon to see the look on her face when she seen it. Still another Bd25oo or so to go. Some day.
6. I wish I could get some answers to questions that seem to not have answers. The not knowing the "why" of something is the most confusing and heartbreaking thing of all sometimes.
7. I wish I could finish writing this book. Actually I wish I wasnt so damn afraid of finishing this book cause then what will I do with the finished product...burn it away...what?
8. I wish I felt I deserved more than what I have been given.
9. I wish I was satisfied with exactly what I have been given.
10. I wish I knew that all of this past 23 (hell 40) years of pain was worth it to get to this moment in time and that there is truly a heaven and hell and if I do end up in hell...I wish the deepest wish of all to see a few familiar faces down there with me.


Chiara said...

Email sent to help deal with #1 :)
#2-10 hmmmmm

coolred38 said...

Chiara...nice. Thanks for the early morning chuckle.

Susie of Arabia said...

I have to admit that many of your wishes would also appear on mine, if I were to make one. I wish I could wave my magic wand and grant each and every one of them for you...

Anyway, Blogger does this thing with line spacing and I don't know how to fix it either! Sometimes it leaves way too many spaces, adn other times it won't leave any - wierd!

San Antonio Cicily said...

I wish I had a million dollars
I wish I weighed 110 like I did in highschool now I weigh 180 (it sucks)

I wish my house would magicly clean itself

I wish I could go on vacation "NOW" I really need one

I wish I could eat banana splits with chocolate Icecream all day long from Baskin Robbins and never gain a pound!

I think thats it! Thats what I wish for!

coolred38 said...

Susie...thanks for wishing for my wishes to come true...what a pal!! lol. Blogger drives me nuts simply because I cant figure this stuff out most of the time.

San and me both.

Susanne said...

Although I don't comment over here much, I think of you and your daughter often. I hope she is doing well in school. I'm sorry you are struggling so much right now, but I'm praying that things look brighter for you soon. I enjoyed your wish list.

Your twitter updates are cute. They amuse me somehow. :)

coolred38 said...

Susanne...thank you. Welcome anytime.