My mother told me that my real father...you know the sperm donor in previous posts...passed away recently. He had many health problems and had been headed that direction for awhile now....I hadnt really given it much thought.
I dont know how to feel...and she is somewhat upset that I havent really responded to the news...but seriously...how should I feel? Should I feel ashamed that I dont actually feel anything?
According to Islam I am now an orphan...no father...real or step...in my life. Neither one had much to offer in ways concerning fatherhood...but I feel a sort of emptiness that is hard to describe.
Im sad in a way I cant define.